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I gained back all 4 pounds, but I have been going to the gym. I have had it with myself.

I’ve been going to the gym everyday and it feels pretty good. On Monday is step, Tuesday is weight training, Wednesday is water aerobics, Thursday is weight training again, Friday is step aerobics and Saturday is dance groove. Too fun. I didn’t make it last Thursday, but I think 5 out of six days is pretty darn good. I was going to wait and weigh in only on Monday’s, but I got inpatient and weighed this am….I was down 4 pounds! I am excited, even if it’s not that big of a victory, it’s still a victory.

So, I know what you’re thinking….184.5 is almost where I started. I have nothing to say for myself except, I suck. I let my busy life get the best of me and I cheated and cheated and cheated some more. For example, not only did I not eat OP, I ate out every day last week for lunch — twice at Applebee’s — and not even the Weight Watchers entrees.

I have reached an all time low. I feel fatter that ever before. I can’t even fit into my fat skirts I bought at the beginning of summer because I couldn’t fit into my clothes then. This has just gotten ridiculous. I spend $60 per month on a gym membership I haven’t used. I spent +/- $300 month on food I haven’t eaten.

I have picked out my food for the upcoming week and I am committed to going to the gym every day.

Another week over and nothing has changed. I have been really sick and wish I could have taken some time off, but there was no way to make that happen. Anyhow, no exercising or dieting.

I am doing well on the smoking front though. I still have days where I really want to smoke, but those a fewer now. I also feel so much better. I don’t think I would have made it through the week with this cold if I was smoking. I was also able to help someone out as a support person which is nice. My stats are looking good too:

I quit 3 Months, 1 Week, 5 Days (104 days) ago. I have saved $538.18 by not smoking 2,090 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Week, 6 hours and 10 minutes of my life.

So, as you can see, I have not been posting lately and that is because 1) I have been working a lot and not spending much time online; and 2) I have not been exercising or dieting. I am still at 180, so I haven’t gained any weight, but 180 is not 176 and I really should be to 150 by now…. ARG! Why do I do this to myself? I am so ashamed.

I have not smoked, however, and I am glad to say that I have passed the 3 month mark and will be celebrating 100 days on Tuesday.

I am pledging that tomorrow I will go to the gym no matter what (no excuses) and I will stay on plan.