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Well, today was a rock bottom fat day. I was invited to a CAbi party and I thought I could get an outfit or two to take to DC, but I am just too fat for CAbi. I need to lose a MINIMUM of 20 pounds to make event he XL work. That is just wrong.

Then, I asked the husband if he’d like to join WW with me, and he freaked and told me to eat the NS food and go to the gym. WTF?! Anyway, he’s probably right… But, I think I’ll join WW anyway. I think I can do WW and NS at the same time. It’d give me the accountability I think I need.

If only losing weight was like smoking. You can’t just quit eating though, can you? (well, I guess some people can, but not me)

I am not sure where the time goes. It seems like just yesterday I was doing the detox, losing pounds and toxins and feeling great. Now, I am nearly back up to 170 and feeling like crap. I called and cancelled my Nutrisystem. I had three months worth and was “really going to do it” after the detox, but I didn’t really do it and well…I had 2.5 months worth left when I came home to yet another shipment I hadn’t delayed on time.

The good news is that I passed my 10 month anniversary of quitting smoking. Here’s the current stats:

I quit 10 Months, 2 Days, 10 hours and 15 minutes (307 days) ago. I have saved $1,583.24 by not smoking 6,148 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Weeks, 8 hours and 20 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 6/17/2007 8:00 AM

I am thinking about joining the Self and Glamour challenges. It’s only 12 weeks (till summer) – if I can not chew for 21 days, I can certainly be good about my intake for 12 weeks? Right?

Also, my gym partner has been very sick. Please keep her in your prayers.

I was feeling pretty good about the success I had with the detox. But then, I blew it and over indulged on fried rice, brownies, muffins and Valentine candy and now I have gained 9 pounds and feel pretty bad. I must be mental because, while I was totally able to do the detox for the 21 + days. I was even pretty good for the first week or so after that, but now, I am back to the same old habits.

I don’t want to be fat. I don’t like it when I over eat, or shovel down a bag of chocolates. The funny thing is, I don’t usually eat candy, but sure enough, when I am “dieting” I eat it like it’s going out of style.

…is hard to do! I have been off the detox for almost two weeks now, and I had full intentions of transitioning right into 100% NS, but for some reason, I have not done it. I have been out to lunch three times not including today’s planned outing) and out to dinner once. The worse thing of all is I snuck in 4 heaping table spoons of macaroni and cheese last night. I have also not been going to the gym.

I just really need to regain that focus I had and snap back to it.

On the NutriSystem boards, there are 100% challenges…I am going to join one of those.

I pretty much went wild yesterday. For breakfast, I had NS blueberry pancakes. Good. Then, for lunch, I finished off my left over chicken and pasta from the night before…uh, okay. Then, for an after lunch snack, I ate a yummy sugary muffin from Costco. Not so good. Then, for a pre-dinner snack, I ate some whole grain chips and salsa. Ugh. And for dinner, way late (After the super bowl) I had asparagus and steak. All that plus the fact that I didn’t work out at all over the weekend and overslept today mean I am afraid to know what my calorie damage is….

Today, I am so far so good, but I didn’t bring a lunch, which might mean trouble later.