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It was a great weekend full of 5ks, dye, bike rides, and most importantly, sun!

Saturday was the Run or Dye 5k I signed up for months ago. It was not what I expected, but I had a great time. We basically walked the whole thing, which was fine by me. Sunday, I went on a nice long bike ride.

The weather here has been record breaking in my opinion! I cannot remember such great weather. I wish it could last forever.

Diet wise, I haven’t been proud, but I at least I am not gaining weight, so I will take it.

Friday is my worst day of the week since it’s court day and I always dread it getting here. But, it also marks the last day of my “diet week” since I changed my weigh-in to Friday. Today I was back down to 152 which is awesome on the one hand and bittersweet on the other since it took me three weeks to get back here and if I hadn’t gained that 6-8 pounds I could have potentially been 144 which is right in my goal zone. Ah well. It is what it is, right?

I chalk the success this week up to 5 days of working out. I made it to step class on Monday, Thursday and Today, power on Tuesday, and barre on Wednesday. Plus, I got in a 3 mile jog/walk Monday and a round of golf on Wednesday. It feels great. Must. Keep. This. Up.

I was able to get in a run this morning and a step class this evening. The good thing about this is that I meant to get in the step class at 6 am and run after but I slept in instead and rather than skip it all, I forced myself to stop at the gym on the way home.

I’d call that progress.

On the foot front,  I have decided to go to the doctor.  My son has been having the same pain in his foot and the doctor diagnosed home with  prominent accessory navicular.  He has to see an orthopaedic surgeon. My pain has gotten worse rather than better so I’m wondering if I have something other than planter fasciitis. I’ve just been ignoring the pain, but I’d rather not have to deal with it at all.

Well, I decided to go back on NS plan with 100% effort and I feel thinner already. I woke up 2 pounds lighter and my pants won’t stay up. Awesome! See what the power of your mind can do? LOL

Anyway, while I did not wake up to my 5 am alarm to go to the gym, I did get in my 42 minute run this morning and I plan to do the same class at the gym tonight.

So far so good.

I’m totally disgusted with myself. I’m sitting here up over 6 pounds (surprised it’s not worse actually) with my belly fat hanging over the keyboard on the iPad and I feel like complete crap. I’m not following my NS diet and I’m not following my exercise plan. I’m basically not doing anything.

I have to get my determination back. It’s ridiculous. I don’t even know how this happens. That’s not true, I do know … I let it.

What can I do? Well, for starters, I can schedule my workouts and do them. I can also follow the NS food plan. I mean really, how hard is it? All the food is right there. I certainly do not need to eat cookies or M&Ms or bagels with cream cheese or chips and salsa or any of the crap I’ve been shoving down my face. I could’ve gone on my bike rides or taken a jog or gone to the gym. I really don’t get it.

I do get it actually. I’ve been depressed this weekend. I didn’t get to go on a trip that I had wanted to do and I’m so sick of my messy house and all the work I am behind at the office and the screaming terrible three year old. I’ve been wallowing in self pity and using the holiday to drink beer and eat crap as an excuse to comfort eat.

What a vicious cycle. Stop it.

1. Calendar exercise and do it. If the schedule changes, do something at a different time, even if it’s using the elliptical at home and an exercise video.

2. Plan the week’s meals. Plan my meals and the family meals. Then stick to it.

3. Stop using the things I’m upset/sad/mad/anxious about allow me to talk myself out of healthy habits.