Disgusted.
I’m totally disgusted with myself. I’m sitting here up over 6 pounds (surprised it’s not worse actually) with my belly fat hanging over the keyboard on the iPad and I feel like complete crap. I’m not following my NS diet and I’m not following my exercise plan. I’m basically not doing anything.
I have to get my determination back. It’s ridiculous. I don’t even know how this happens. That’s not true, I do know … I let it.
What can I do? Well, for starters, I can schedule my workouts and do them. I can also follow the NS food plan. I mean really, how hard is it? All the food is right there. I certainly do not need to eat cookies or M&Ms or bagels with cream cheese or chips and salsa or any of the crap I’ve been shoving down my face. I could’ve gone on my bike rides or taken a jog or gone to the gym. I really don’t get it.
I do get it actually. I’ve been depressed this weekend. I didn’t get to go on a trip that I had wanted to do and I’m so sick of my messy house and all the work I am behind at the office and the screaming terrible three year old. I’ve been wallowing in self pity and using the holiday to drink beer and eat crap as an excuse to comfort eat.
What a vicious cycle. Stop it.
1. Calendar exercise and do it. If the schedule changes, do something at a different time, even if it’s using the elliptical at home and an exercise video.
2. Plan the week’s meals. Plan my meals and the family meals. Then stick to it.
3. Stop using the things I’m upset/sad/mad/anxious about allow me to talk myself out of healthy habits.
