I want a cigarette. NOW!
It will be three months tomorrow, but I have really really really been tempted to stop at the store and buy a pack. I know they say to watch out for the icky threes (3 days, 3 weeks, 3 months) but this is ridiculous. It’s not like I have a craving, but I’ve been getting a bit irritable. Although, the smell of smokers makes me want to hurl. It is so disgusting, I can’t stand it, and I am ashamed to think that I used to smell like that (?!). I also find myself getting angry with smokers. Is it because I am jealous that they can smoke and I can’t?
Does this ever go away? I am tormented by the desire to smoke and the disdain I feel for smoking. Am I going to be a slave to this addiction the rest of my sorry life? It’s like nothing matters anymore. How sad is that? Good thing I’m on Wellbutrin.
Here’s my stats to day as I don’t think I’ll get a chance tomorrow:
I have been quit for 2 Months, 4 Weeks, 1 Day, 1 hour, 1 minute and 24 seconds (91 days). I have saved $468.86 by not smoking 1,820 cigarettes. I have saved 6 Days, 7 hours and 40 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 6/17/2007 8:00 AM
At $469 dollars saved, I have, in a sense, repaid the $50 hypnosis fees, and the $350 for the vitamins. Now, there’s the $ 260 for the iPod that was my “quit present” and the $160 gym start-up fees (not to mention the $60 per month) and the $120 in exercise clothing… I better get my butt into that gym!
